pain is what makes us weak...but with pain we learn

Monday, May 16, 2005

Magic

The following words were taken from Magic the Gathering:

"Friends, comrades, and lovers may come and go...

but in birth, in life and in death I'l always be alone."

Thursday, April 07, 2005

Yaddew

It just came to my mind just this instance, the name Yaddew. Isn't it unique, so beautiful, and like there is something different about it filled with naughtiness. My ex-future wife came with the nickname Yaddew for our first child. Actually it was Leigh Wednesday San Jose, Yaddew was taken from the name WED-nes-DAY. Just invert the words WED and DAY and put them together you'll come up with YADDEW. Isn't that nice my ex-future wife thought of it, isn't she smart.

Anyway, I wonder where is Yaddew now? I don't know. I can't tell where she is right now. Or will she ever come to life. Wait... yes now I remember where I have left my beautiful daughter. I have left her in the care of my heart.

Friday, February 04, 2005

So Broke!

What else can I say? Our company is broke with millions of debts unpaid and I'm broke. No money in my pocket to pay this internet session, not even five pesos spare to buy a gulaman. Darn! What else? Pardz got mad because according to her I lied to her last night when she called. Which I didn't intentionally did. pardz, if only you were there last night you would have been proud of me (promise! or better it would be splendid. Kasi sau ako mate-tempt!). I said nga I'd rather say to you (this day) na I have overcome my temptations than to say sorry pardz I did it again. Hmp! Pero napansin mo pa rin yung lie ko kagabi! Anyways, I think if I'l be in your position I might get mad din. Sorry po ulit pardz. Mwah! Ano pa? sulit ko na itong chance na ito, I don't know when I'l be back to update and post my pictures. Speaking of pictures, darn, I forgot my phone! I wont be able to upload it to my bucket for posting. Haaaay!!! What a sad day! so sad and so broke! bye for now my small intestine is wrestling my large intestine (poor large intestine).

Saturday, January 08, 2005

After Another Christmas Story After Christmas

The night after Kainan sa Buho at Shiela's crib



Mumai, Sheila, and Maggie

Take two (spot the difference contest!)

Shiela and Jeff, trying out to be commercial models

Gio, Sheila's son, with the two of the girls (tnx bes for the tip!)

Direct David emoting...

Me and my buddy Jeff (best friend and best rival sa basketball)



Morning time...we slept over Sheila's place



All wrap up, shivering in coldness brought by the morning

Chocolate a.k.a. David and yours truly...Big Fat Grimm

Remains from the battle...

The culprits este the victors!

And after all of these is...goodbye. David, Jeff, Shiela, Maggie and Bespren Mumai thanks for making my Christmas worth remembering!!! This year ulit! ha ha!

Thursday, January 06, 2005

Another Christmas Story after Christmas

(Part II)

Christmas day, we got over to Shiela's place to wait for Jeff. They called in old classmates to come over Shiela's crib. No one was free. The three of us David, Shiela and me decided to go to Manila and spend the rest of christmas there. We decided to hook Maggie with us. Then they called up mumai. And Jeff called us that he'll follow. We hang by Walter Mart to wait for Jeff and Mumai.


(Maggie, Shiela and Chocolate [kiddin! that's David])





(pretty friends of mine - maggie and crazy mom (I mean gorgeous Shiela)


Then Jeff arrived at the mall and so did Mumai. We rushed by the street to catch a bus to Manila. While waiting for the ride we were deciding where to go (how splendid our plan was...very spontaneous). Some stupid guy (choose among the three guys [technically three, David is a chickboy] me, david and jeff [I wouldn't be calling myself stupid nor would I call a Bi stupid too]) said we should go to Divisoria. Others said we should go to eastwood or ortigas or maybe baywalk. I contributed star city out of nowhere, only mumai liked my idea(syempre bespren ko ata yan!!!). Then all ideas were exhausted we had a quorum that we'll go where the first bus will take us. From the queue of vehicles by the street came a bus plying to Divisoria! (Darn! I take the word stupid back. hehe!) The traffic was so devastating that if we decided to stay and wait for a bus probably we'll be at Manila by new year.

We decided to go back to Baliuag to celebrate what was left of christmas there. We jump up a jeep going to Baliuag and stop by Kainan sa Buho

We were so excited to come back there, the experience of last year was still fresh. All the good foods, drinks, and the cheap price plus the overwhelming services. Darn it was so good to come back. Entering the place, I pointed to the second floor. I told the rest of the gang that it would be better if we stay on the second floor, the whole place will be better viewed there.

So there we were, reminiscing the christmas of last year and how good Shiela's invention was; iced tea float with san mig lyt on it! Cool! I dare you to try it, it's cool, really cool! The attendant came and took our orders. Everyone was puzzled which to order. Anyway, we settled with sisig (special daw), gising-gising (a mixture of seafood cuisine which is also delicious) and a grilled squid and of course a bucket of san mig lyt. One bad news was there were no Iced tea float any more (so sad!).

While waiting for the food we had a little chit chat... and then the little chit chat turned into a serious high school recollection. After 30 minutes of waiting the food were still nowhere in sight this turned out...

girls were smiling wildly for no reason...or so I thought. They were smiling for the guy over the porch...

...who seem to be contemplating over something (that I don't know and I don't care!!!).

hunger came over the people and they start to stood from their chairs. A mysterious music from nowhere filled our ears and then the whole place started to get bumpy. Shiela led the pack over the floor. While grooving down the kawayan floors we noticed that there was a guy staring at Shiela...(looks like a stalker or some maniac who never saw a gorgeous lady grooving)

The strange guy stared at Shiela for half an hour. Studying every angle and every move... we were so afraid to tell Shiela since she seemed to be taken by the music. When we tried to approach Shiela this came to our view...
(to be continue...my tummy won't permit me to work anymore. :D)

As we stare to the image in front of us, we felt a forceful wind that seems to have been coming behind the image heading towards us. It struck us and blew us flat to the wall… I lost consciousness after hitting the wall. I lay in there for a while, back flat on the floor. I never knew what happened next…

And when I opened my eyes the first thing that came to my mind was to look for the others. I circled the floor and saw that everyone was down and unconscious. David was hanging by the bars of the wall. Sheila was… still dancing even at an unconscious state. Mumai was covered with chairs but seems to be unhurt. Neither bruise nor blood was seen from the floor. I lift everyone up and sat them to the nearest wall close to each other. As I pick each one of them, Maggie struck my mind. Where is Maggie? Everyone was here except Maggie. What happened to her? After lifting and setting them to a safe place I began my search for Maggie.

It seems like we were where enveloped inside a vortex or some sort of another dimension. The outside world continues to exist without any care of what has happened to us. They don’t seem to hear or see what’s going up the second floor. One of the attendants came up and a sudden relief came over me. I rushed into her as she stepped inside the place. As I close-in to her, a sudden chill wrapped my body that made me fell to my knees. My body felt so heavy that I couldn’t stand up. All I can do was to lift my head and reach for the attendant nearing me. I yelled for help, but she can’t hear me not even a slight reaction. I felt so helpless, she came closer and closer to me but I can’t get her attention. She walked pass across me like a ray of light passing through a stone. I turned my head to follow where she’s going. As I look, I see images of us settled down by the chairs and blissfully talking about our high school life. I turned to where I left my friends and there they were lifeless and unconscious, but how could we exist in both worlds at the same time.

My head started to feel heavier that it felt like nerves were cracking and exploding to the intolerable pain caused by the force behind all these things. The image of the guy who stalked Shiela and the image we saw before it all happen flashed in front of my eyes. I don’t know what’s going on. I don’t know what he’s been trying to say to me… then a thought came in my mind. Where the heck is Jeff? Then suddenly everything felt so light…the image we saw earlier, dark and gloomy has brightened up. The image we saw was no other than Jeff. His image changed with all the dark lights surrounding him. Then he spoke with a hard voice. “Why did you call me stupid? Do you think I’m kidding when I suggested that we should go to Divisoria?” Jeff said. “I’m not stupid!!!” added Jeff. I tried to stand and reach for him but suddenly all that makes me heavy befell my body once again. I couldn’t move nor think of anything to do. He spoke again, “Divisoria is the place to be. There are lots of cheap stuffs there. We could even watch a movie there. But what did you do? You just laughed at me as if I’m this naïve kid asking to be heard! I’m no kid!!! I’m not stupid!!!” It all made sense now. Jeff was angered when we rejected his idea of going to Divisoria and me calling him s-t-u-p-i-d. I’m down by the floor so helpless a word came out my mouth… “S-o-r-r-y”. Then everything begun to circle, faster and faster, taking everything in sight. It felt like a twister hit the place. But instead of destroying everything that collides in its way, it felt that everything that has happened is being undone. Everything is moving except me, still down by my knees and in front of Jeff. It looks like that we were inside a film rewinding from the start. Then everything suddenly stopped to where my girl friends were smiling crazily over the guy by the porch, which was Jeff. He turned to me while I’m still on my knees and say “say it again”. I replied “what?” Say the word you whispered earlier before I returned everything in its places. I thought of it and then I said “stupid?” He pointed his finger on me as if he’s going to shoot me. I took back my words and say “SORRY”. “I’m just kidding you stupid naïve kid”. I crafted a grin and he grin back at me. He reached for my hand and helped me stand up.

It seems so clear right now, everything that has happened was just a manifestation of Jeff’s naïve anger. We laugh and laugh for all those things that just happened just for a stupid thing I did to Jeff. So crazy! Everyone gathered around me and Jeff. We had a group hug. We look at each other and exchange smiles, while doing that. Someone is not in the group, someone is missing then we turned back to look then we saw… MAGGIE!


(Photos by David B.)

Tuesday, January 04, 2005

A Christmas Story after Christmas

(Part I)
Since November of last year I was longing to go home and meet my family and my friends because staying here in Balayan wasn't that pleasing anymore. Actually, I day dream about going home while working. The last two months were so terrible, because I was locked-in our office to do admin works. My assistant was in a maternal leave for two months (where on earth will you ever find such kind of maternal leave? As if she's going to give birth to a dozen infants!). I hate staying in the office and do their job when my job is left unattended! Haay! Buhay nga naman!

Me and my high school friend's usually don't gather during christmas. But the christmas of 2003 was different. I could remember it well, how a boring christmas turned into a hot christmas!

Me and my friend David agreed to meet home and go out with Jeff (a friend of ours who is constantly late). We were so bored waiting for Jeff we decided to go out and eat pizza. While dining at Pizza Hut we saw this seemingly familiar face whose dragging her kid by the sidewalk. Then it came to our senses that it was Sheila, one of our kabarkada. Then we wave wildly to get her attention (ummm! not so wild as you may imagine it). She turned and look at us and was shocked and grinning crazily that she almost came face off with the glass wall of the pizza shop. Anyway, she went inside with his son(I forgot her son's name. Sorry Shiela. Promise to edit this one as soon as I remember your son's name). Actually Shiela was dragging her son because it won't walk anymore. The young boy won't walk because he has a pooh on his pants, Shiela told us. They off merrying and going to his sons godparents. So we sat there for a while and chit chat a little bit as we wait for Mr. Late. And believe it or not we hang by Pizza Hut for another 30 minutes waiting for Jeff while having Shiela's son sat on his pooh! Crazy mom! (kiddin!)

From there we decided to go to Shiela's place to eat some more! And then when we arrived there they decided to call on some of our old friends. Then Cecile, the hot chick from our class whom Jeff always fantasies, came over. Then Sheila's dad, whose very generous, presented a bottle of Vodka for us to share and drink! Then David, alcoholic God, thought of doing a mix. Then we drunk and share things under the christmas lights by Shiela's garage. After the first mix was over we decided to go pure with lemon on the side. Then everybody was a bit hot and tipsy except for David, then Cecile mentioned of a place owned by our classmate Allan (whom Jeff quoted as being one of the Orcs). Allan owns this place called Kainan sa Buho. Cecile said that it's a resto bar that caters exotic food and the place is great. Everyone was curious about it, so despite that we were all tipsy we decide to invade and explore what's in this Kainan sa Buho.

We went there. We eat and have some more drinks. Things were cool. Drinks came and pouring in, also food came by left and right. To make it short things went so good that night that we went home around 1am. After christmas we decided to go back to Allan's place the following year to spend christmas. And we hope to have a better christmas this year.

Last month these things are all I could think of while working, really it was that exciting that every time I go to work I would go blank and stare outside and wait for the time to go home.

(Part II will follow tomorrow if fate will provide time hehe! Got to go home and sleep na.)

Saturday, December 11, 2004

Turtle Princess

For a moment I thought
I miss you...
But then again
I was wrong
I'll never miss you...
never at all!

I thought I lost
my sanity knowing
I'l never ever lay
my sight on you.
But I was wrong, again.

My mistake was
I keep on thinking
about you...
when I should've felt you
here in my heart.

'Cause you were just
right there all the time.

Memoirs of Manila Bay



Tranquil...


serene...


soothing...
just what a weary soul needs after a day of battle.

Manila Bay - September 8, 2004
(Photos by Grimm)